I Saw You For Dinner Tonight
Athen’s Hotel
We had dinner tonight at our favorite spot in Echo Park. It's the kind of place that never disappoints—a perfect meal every time. We've always been able to enjoy food together, but this time, we were able to really enjoy each other's company too. We slipped back into that old dance, the one we always fall back on, but now with a clear line drawn around what this friendship really is. Yes, we are best friends, and we're the closest thing we have to family.
You talked about how you started using dating apps again, how bleak it all seems. You've always been better at moving on than me. I can already hear you saying, "But wasn't this what you wanted for the past year? To break up and move on?" Yes, it was. But god, the way you can just compartmentalize everything so easily—even though I'm not in love with you anymore and you're not with me—it just got me thinking. How different we all are, the ways we form attachments, whether in friendships, family, acquaintances—some people can just be so cutthroat about cutting others off, or tucking them away into neat little compartments. That kind of clean break is beyond me.
Sure, I've thought about dating again, but I don't think I'm ready. Not for something serious, at least. Will I ever be? You seemed so confident, so sure of yourself. I'm not jealous, just... amazed. Maybe I need to dive into it too, fill this void with something casual. But god, the thought of it makes me want to gag. Lol. Sigh... we each have our own journeys. I’m happy that you’re happy. I hope you find what you are looking for.
10:36pm
You talked about how you started using dating apps again, how bleak it all seems. You've always been better at moving on than me. I can already hear you saying, "But wasn't this what you wanted for the past year? To break up and move on?" Yes, it was. But god, the way you can just compartmentalize everything so easily—even though I'm not in love with you anymore and you're not with me—it just got me thinking. How different we all are, the ways we form attachments, whether in friendships, family, acquaintances—some people can just be so cutthroat about cutting others off, or tucking them away into neat little compartments. That kind of clean break is beyond me.
Sure, I've thought about dating again, but I don't think I'm ready. Not for something serious, at least. Will I ever be? You seemed so confident, so sure of yourself. I'm not jealous, just... amazed. Maybe I need to dive into it too, fill this void with something casual. But god, the thought of it makes me want to gag. Lol. Sigh... we each have our own journeys. I’m happy that you’re happy. I hope you find what you are looking for.
10:36pm